Just before we leave, Rolling Stones, Alice in Wonderland and more ramblings

We're leaving in two days, three with today, and for the first time in thirty years or more I don't really anticipate the trip. I had dreams about it, I had wishes related to it, hopes, ideas... Now, today, it looks like a silly way to spend a birthday... Childish. This is to answer your questions do I feel Saturn on my Sun. Oh, yeah, I do. We're having daily meetings and fighting on a regular basis. He presses down, I'm kicking up. LOL It could have been funny but it's about power and testing. We'll be stripped down to the bone. All our dreams, desires, wishes, what we think we've done and who we think we are. Finally, it's up to us if we'll fall or rise. And shine. ;) He says "Pay!", I say "Give!".  :)

It feels like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=djfSvI043dI


But... at the end of the day, at the end of a day like today, when the moon is up and glowing, when the times of struggle seem so far, when all noises are gone and earth is falling asleep, I read to my son "Alice In Wonderland" and I choose to greet myself and you with one of the best love poems ever written... because at the end of any day, nothing else matters and nothing else is stronger or will ever be.

        They told me you had been to her,
          And mentioned me to him:
        She gave me a good character,
          But said I could not swim.

        He sent them word I had not gone
          (We know it to be true):
        If she should push the matter on,
          What would become of you?

        I gave her one, they gave him two,
          You gave us three or more;
        They all returned from him to you,
          Though they were mine before.

        If I or she should chance to be
          Involved in this affair,
        He trusts to you to set them free,
          Exactly as we were.

        My notion was that you had been
          (Before she had this fit)
        An obstacle that came between
          Him, and ourselves, and it.

        Don't let him know she liked them best,
          For this must ever be
        A secret, kept from all the rest,
          Between yourself and me.'

Birthday countdown and Saturn in Scorpio

Here it is, another birthday post. LOL This time it's mine though. Exactly one month left. It's been a strange year... Quite fast overall. A roller coaster sometimes. Insecure, risky, exciting, disturbing. Funnily, nothing major truly happened but the restless feeling was there all the time. It felt like I was watching a giant puzzle being arranged around me and many people coming, going, doing things or not doing them, talking, running, moving, and I was somewhere on the side but I could sense the speed of it all. No one knows where it leads, of course. I'm yet to dig in my own Solar Return for next year.

More important, I'll be in Pisa for my birthday, planning some good time and I definitely need to change the environment for a while. Presents will be received at my current address, please. Boxes with ticking mechanisms inside and bottles with suspicious content will not be opened. LOL Letters and birthday cards are welcome! (why don't people write any of these anymore?)

On to the more serious stuff. (so to speak :)))) Many of us will host Saturn on our Sun next month, returning after almost 30 years. I'll be among the first. As soon as he enters Scorpio he will make his presence known as my Sun is at 3 Scorpio conjunct Uranus. What to expect? Responsibility and structure. As Darwin once said:

"Nature is calling a siren song and not to answer is not to belong."

Those of you who will have an aspect between Saturn and Moon or Venus may very well hear this song pretty loud. The urge to take a step further in personal life may become hard to resist. Saturn is a strong guardian and if you follow this urge and his advice, you may find yourself in a completely new stage of your life but it should be good for you. If you have an aspect Saturn/Moon or Saturn/Venus in your natal in a sign where it will be aspected, this will be true for you too as transiting Saturn will unlock it.

However, if he aspects a planet like Uranus in your chart, like he does in mine, what will most probably happen is an earthquake. Uranus will not tolerate the discipline Saturn requires and these two will clash severely. Because Saturn's lessons are a must, it's a good idea for all of us to try and channel Uranus's rebellious energy in something else, like sport or art, or anything that will allow Saturn to do his job without the need to beat us on the heads.

As about Saturn on our Scorpio Sun, first of all, this is going to be long, so get ready. He will turn retrograde and come back, and then cross over again. Check what natal aspects you have between Saturn and your Sun as this will give you a clue if you are prepared for this test. I have a square in my natal and I'm pretty much aware of how this energy works. I've also had enough time to learn to deal with it. What it has brought me in the past were new responsibilities, both professional and personal. It wasn't bad! On the contrary, it was related to wishes fulfilled and many things happened exactly as I wanted them to be. Don't forget squares are not only friction, they bring resolutions to problems too. Chances are, if you have a square, opposition or conjunction between Saturn and Sun in your natal, you will do fine with this transit as well. If you have soft aspects, then you may need to work harder and learn how to find solutions for your problems.

Finally, check in which house Saturn will hit your Scorpio Sun, or Moon, or Venus, or Mars. For me it will be the 9th and I've already found travelling becoming more difficult, obstacles appearing but when I persuade, it all works out. That's Saturn - he will put obstacles in the way to check if we really want this and if we keep pushing, he will let us pass. The 9th is also about further education, distant travel, second marriage, contracts, publishing, planning, moving, etc. All related to broadening our life in every possible way. Explore which house will be affected in your chart and stay positive because this should bring rewards!

A New Moon?

*Image courtesy of realastrologers.com

In Scorpio, on my birthday. How appropriate, hm? :D Soooo... I'm obliged to write a longish wish list, no escape here. Watch out, Santa! I've been writing for a couple of days to make sure on the 26-27th I'll have more than enough requests to keep you busy till Christmas! LOL

And here is what I found today:
"The new moon at the end of the month falls in your sign, and this is an empowering time for you, when you make considerable impact on the world. This is a new start with a strong focus on the economy and how to administrate and share resources. There is a strong focus on travel in connection with career and partnership at this time and the stakes are high."
http://gugi.typepad.com/blog/2011/09/scorpio-october.html#more

Very high indeed! LOL London for Christmas, a bit of Italy for the New Years's, how about some Venice for the carnival too? :D

On the other hand, I'm wondering which one is more concerning - Colin Firth in a third Bridget Jones movie or Keira Knightley as Anna Karenina.... That's Tolstoy, for God's sake! :ooooooo The only movie I have ever seen that successfully united Russian culture with Western cast was the "Barber of Siberia". But let's not forget it was written (partially) and directed by Mikhalkov. Everything else is such a... blah. And Knightley? For Anna? God forbid. Although Firth trying to conceive is almost equally terrifying.

Which probably means this will be another holiday season watching the good old BBC series, armed with liquor bonbons and good cognac. :D

Scorpio revelation

I couldn't resist but borrow this from Michael Lutin's astrological website:

"Only a Scorpio could be both romantically idealistic and depressed and grieving at the same time."

Ha! The man knows me, apparently!